You

I want you here and now
I don't care your past
I can help
But only if you let me
But I know you want someone else.

I don't need you tell me so
I can see it
And even tough
I don't want to accept it
It hurts
More than I thought it would do
Why?
Why does it has to be like that?
Couldn't it be simpler?
I'm always waiting
Waiting for you.

Fuck.

Is this what I've been asking for?
Is this love?
How can I know?
Why it can't be both sides?
Why I'm so afraid?
Why it couldn't be easier?
Just say it
And everything is fine
Or even better
Just kill me
It's easier.

Sometimes we talk all day
Then, I have to wait for hours
At least I know that in some moment
It will happen
Why I can't be that person
The one you love
The one you think about all day
And all night?
Why not me?

Sometimes I like to think
That she might be me
But reality yells at me
She is not you
She will never be you
And it hurts
It hurts so much